how to fix my life without leaving my bedroom or engaging with anything or anyone ?
(via abuzd)
“my starving body lies numb
the drugs i’ve taken kicking
the one i love sits on my brain
i can no longer think of anything else
too tired to move, too weak to care”
-hails
(via allesfurdieshow)
something about being traumatized and mentally ill for years on end without any help is that it alters your brain and messes with how it processes memories and data. this becomes really inconvenient especially during fights or stressful events because your brain will be aware that something happened but it won’t be able to pinpoint what exactly happened down to specific details or what was exactly said. this sucks because it makes you more vulnerable to manipulation and being gaslit. you’re easily convinced that you’re in the wrong and that you’re a bad person simply because of the unreliability your memories provide. i want you to know that you aren’t a bad person and i’m so sorry there are people out there who have taken advantage of your incapability to have a reliable memory.
(via allesfurdieshow)
